So I tried to initiate some couple time today. But she seemed distracted as she usually gets. Just noticing my pores, skin, pimples etc. talk about a mood killer. This happened twice.
Maybe that’s why most couples have their alone time at night.
Frustrated, I just stop. Is it too much for me to expect some quality time? Is it too much for me to always initiate? She said she initiated earlier but I don’t see how, even after she explained.
Tried talking to her about our communication issues but that doesn’t go well, as usual. I was getting frustrated again so I went to take a nap. And woke up to her still pissed at me.
Somehow I feel like we are on two different wavelengths now.
Why is it some problems keep coming up time and time again? Why can’t issues be dropped? Why does one side always have to bring things up?
I am fed up of being blindsided. Just because there may be other people around, a person can seemingly be alright about a certain issue but then once you are both alone, just smack the issue back into your face.
True, I may come across as passive-aggressively shouldering the blame because I don’t want to talk about it anymore but I just want to move on and if it means accepting the burden of fault, so be it.
I can’t take this anymore. I feel like I am on the verge of giving up. Like I am pushing myself away.
I’m a communications professional. But it’s so hard to communicate with some people.
After so much time together, why is it so hard? Are we being too sensitive to each other? Reading into where there is nothing?
I don’t want to argue anymore. I don’t want to fight. I want to rest. I’m tired of all the crap.
Inner Thoughts of Depression