Lost

I had the horrible dream that she is leaving. That she is conflicted to stay or go. Wearing her white shirt and her hair tied into a pony tail, I really wish she would stay. She is engaged and I know I cannot be a reason for her to stay but I wish I could be.

Unwanted


你要的不是我

怎麼能忘 時間多長
你快樂嗎 想代替你回答
你知道嗎 走了好遠
我才能去面對
這份牽掛 沉默傷悲
你要的不是我
心碎的失去輪廓
曾經給你的感動
只是情緒的波動
能給的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩飾不了我的笨拙
就連說話都會顫抖
我被遺忘在 你遺忘的角落

怎麼能忘 時間多長
你快樂嗎 想代替你回答
你知道嗎 走了好遠
我才能去面對
這份牽掛 沉默傷悲
你要的不是我
心碎的失去輪廓
曾經給你的感動
只是情緒的波動
能給的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩飾不了我的笨拙
就連說話都會顫抖
我被遺忘在 你遺忘的角落
你要的不是我
心碎的失去輪廓
曾經給你的感動
只是情緒的波動
能給的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩飾不了我的笨拙
就連說話都會顫抖
我被遺忘在 你遺忘的角落
我被遺忘在 你遺忘的角落

Longing

As I see you in the distance,

The wind blowing through your long flowing hair,

I count back the missed chances,

And wish I was standing with you there.

 

Your sweet, gentle smile that warms my heart.

How I long for it to smile at me

If I had met you before I did,

To be able to gaze at you lovingly.

 

For it is all of you,

The perfect imperfections,

That causes my heart distress,

And moans of lamentations

 

As you float on by without ever knowing,

How much you mean to me.

My captive heart, how it yearns and bleeds,

To be one day set free.

You

It was always you.

You were open and honest with me.

When I was new and lost, you came and welcomed me.

You were frank and helped me to be better.

You trusted me with things that were personal.

We did things together and went through crap together.

When things happened to me and I was thrown off track, you stood by me and helped me along.

But I got stuck, and your patience wore thin.

I miss you.

I miss the times when we joked and laughed and chilled together.

I miss the daily drives where we would just talk.

You don’t think much of me anymore and sadly I understand.

I wish I could turn back the hands of time, to go back to when things were simpler and happy.

I look back and wish we did not drift.

Yours is a friendship that I never want to lose.

But I am afraid I have already lost you.