Why is it some problems keep coming up time and time again? Why can’t issues be dropped? Why does one side always have to bring things up?

I am fed up of being blindsided. Just because there may be other people around, a person can seemingly be alright about a certain issue but then once you are both alone, just smack the issue back into your face.

True, I may come across as passive-aggressively shouldering the blame because I don’t want to talk about it anymore but I just want to move on and if it means accepting the burden of fault, so be it.

I can’t take this anymore. I feel like I am on the verge of giving up. Like I am pushing myself away.