We have kind of agreed to see a marriage counsellor. I have mixed feelings because it is letting people into our lives and that when I expose my deepest, darkest secrets I will get judged.

I feel so disgusted with myself for the things that I can think of and do and while I know it is not on the real bad side of it, I wonder how people think and that tears me up. I just can’t handle that.

To have observers that silently judge.