Connection
It’s been a while but last night was a long time in a while since we were able to enjoy each other’s company. It seems that with so many things that weighed us both down we weren’t able to try to connect with each other without either of us flaring up.
Maybe it was ML’s advice that helped, maybe it was because I watched a romantic show for the first time in a long while.
I hope that this keeps up and that we can rebuild from here.
Protected: Silence
Unappreciated
I guess I’ve always been the type of guy to focus on others first. And now it has come to bite me in my ass. It doesn’t seem like a lot of the things I do is appreciated. I know I do a lot of the “thankless” types of jobs, but I guess it chips away at me.
Maybe its that I feel invalidated as a person; that sometimes I get taken for granted. Perhaps the reason why I have urges to just disappear is because it seems just that easy. Other than my HOD and ML, no many others seem to appreciate our work. In fact, I have the feeling that we are being herded out.
Is it wrong to seek some validation? Surely not?
Tiny
Trivial things add up.
That’s why lately I am edgy with her. And she feels I’m making a big deal over nothing. Maybe I am, maybe I am not. It’s hard to keep track nowadays.
I’m dry. I feel abandoned. I am lost. So far these are the things that I am certain about. Everything else is fluid. And rushing all over.
Even the tiniest drops of water, can crack an entire boulder with time. The littlest impacts add up.
It will be tough on her but I need her to be strong while I sort my mess out.