I have told people to come up with a list of 10 “must haves” and 10 “must not haves” to narrow down their future partner. If the person doesn’t check of on everything, then don’t even consider it.

I just found my old list. And realised that not all of them are checked off. Perhaps in my desperation, I actually thought she checked off on all counts. Perhaps as time went by things changed.

I guess I know my duty is to stick it out. I’ve made the commitment and I have to live with it. But I feel right now that it is so hard to pull through, assuming that we can pull through. I almost wish I could call the whole thing off and disappear.