Am I blowing up too much about things  when maybe I shouldn’t be as angry? ML seems to think so. ML also said I am being selfish by letting her do things on her own, and trying to get some space. Is it really selfish If I also want the space to cool off?

I don’t want to think that my current situation makes me more irritable. It could well be that. More likely, it could be years of just not addressing the same issue that adds more dynamite to a shortening fuse.

Maybe I’m not suited for a relationship. It’s almost as though I prefer being alone most of the time. Although, when I’m alone I dream more. ML said that while they feel nothing when their significant other is around, when they meet, ML is happy. I think that there’s something missing there. I think that when the significant other is not around, there should at least be a longing to be with them and eagerness to be with them. For me now , it’s as though I dread being with her, that I would rather focus on some trivial matters at work than rush to be with her.