If there’s a problem, I tend to want to do whatever it takes to try and overcome it. She prefers to stick to one way and go through it slowly. I think I could respect that if not for the simple fact that this is a problem that has been ongoing for well over a year and maybe why I feel so disconnected.
It has caused me be lack confidence in myself, in her, in us. It is not a simple problem to overcome, and I am afraid of it.
I am afraid of what it can do and sometimes I really feel like just throwing in the towel and giving up. It is just one reason why I have been feeling crap lately and unfortunately, it is a big one and one of the few that I have the slightest control over. Not much but slight.
And it just breaks me that there seems to be nothing I can do.