{"id":548,"date":"2022-01-03T00:48:20","date_gmt":"2022-01-02T16:48:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/?p=548"},"modified":"2022-01-03T00:48:20","modified_gmt":"2022-01-02T16:48:20","slug":"solo-spiral","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/?p=548","title":{"rendered":"Solo Spiral"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>I\u2019m back after an eternity. I\u2019ve been teetering on the brink and I know that I am falling again. The world is in a sorry state and possibly just recovering, but I fear that I have been enduring more than I can bear. the past month or so, I\u2019ve been feeling lonely again, I\u2019m again reminded of how I am no where near the accomplishments that my peers have achieved. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019m now a middle-aged divorcee that has not achieved any measure of success in career, relationships, or most anything that matters. I have no idea idea how to  move forward anymore.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Over the past 3 years I had been working on a few happiness projects. Small little steps for me to be happy:-<\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul><li>Marriage<ul><li>Finally am free from this. While not an annulment as it could have been, I\u2019m just thankful that I no longer have to suffer. It was expensive, but necessary. <\/li><\/ul><\/li><li>Studies<ul><li>Started and completed a degree in Mass Communications (with 2nd class upper)<\/li><\/ul><\/li><li>Health<\/li><li>Building a New Home<\/li><li>Moving on in Career<\/li><li>Relationships<\/li><\/ul>\n\n\n\n<p>The latter points would be best elaborated on in future updates.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The starting point of all this, is that she got married. I knew that I needed to move on and I finally told her that I had been carrying a torch for her for ages. Of course, she knew. What I didn\u2019t expect was her subsequent reaction. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Fast forward to my 40th birthday, which was very muted. I ended up doing nothing special all alone. And that\u2019s when my spiral started. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I am all alone. What little accomplishments I had, I had no one to share with.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019m back after an eternity. I\u2019ve been teetering on the brink and I know that I am falling again. The world is in a sorry state and possibly just recovering, but I fear that I have been enduring more than I can bear. the past month or so, I\u2019ve been feeling lonely again, I\u2019m again &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/?p=548\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Solo Spiral<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/548"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=548"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/548\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":549,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/548\/revisions\/549"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=548"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=548"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=548"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}