{"id":319,"date":"2014-01-09T17:43:29","date_gmt":"2014-01-09T09:43:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/?p=319"},"modified":"2014-01-09T17:50:36","modified_gmt":"2014-01-09T09:50:36","slug":"disappear","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/?p=319","title":{"rendered":"Disappear"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I feel like crap. I am still recovering from flu and having crazier mood swings. Often, I have no appetite and have been feeling giddy or light-headed. And I just puked air.<\/p>\n<p>At least twice today I had to get out of the office and take deep breaths. Maybe I am getting anxiety attacks, heart palpitations or something. Concerned boss, GT, suggests maybe I should check my blood pressure.<\/p>\n<p>People are talking about Chinese New Year and I am just dreading it. I am hating the idea of spending it with family. I already have a tough time putting on a mask everywhere I go. I can hardly be myself around people. Sometimes I wonder if I am being a bother to ML with all my crap.<\/p>\n<p>I need to get away. It is times like this, that the whole idea of disappearing sounds more and more appealing. I wish I could do that. Just disappear.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I feel like crap. I am still recovering from flu and having crazier mood swings. Often, I have no appetite and have been feeling giddy or light-headed. And I just puked air. At least twice today I had to get out of the office and take deep breaths. Maybe I am getting anxiety attacks, heart &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/?p=319\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Disappear<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":321,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[38,2],"tags":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/disappear.jpg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/319"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=319"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/319\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":325,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/319\/revisions\/325"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/321"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=319"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=319"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/elijahtan.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=319"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}