Communication

I’m a communications professional. But it’s so hard to communicate with some people.

After so much time together, why is it so hard? Are we being too sensitive to each other? Reading into where there is nothing?

I don’t want to argue anymore. I don’t want to fight. I want to rest. I’m tired of all the crap.

Tests

An encouragement from ML…

Faithful Is He Who Has Promised

Are you passing through a testing.
Is your pillow wet with tears?
Do you wonder what the reason,
Why it seems God never hears?

Why it is you have no answer
To your oft-repeated plea,
Why the heaven still is leaden
As you wait on bended knee?

Do you wonder as you suffer,
Whether God does understand,
And if so, why He ignores you,
Fails to hold you in His Hand?

Do black doubts creep in, assail you,
Fears without, and fears within,
Till your brave heart almost falters
And gives way to deadly sin?

All God’s testings have a purpose-
Someday you will see the light.
All He asks is that you trust Him,
Walk by faith and not by sight.

Do not fear when doubts beset you,
Just remember-He is near;
He will never, never leave you,
He will always, always hear.

Faithful is He who has promised,
He will never let you fall,
Daily will the strength be given
Strength for each and strength for all.

He will gladly share pain with you,
He will gladly give you peace.
Till your tired and weary body
Finds its blessed, glad release.

When the darkened veil is lifted,
Then, dear heart, you’ll understand
Why it is you had to suffer,
Why you could not feel His hand

Giving strength when it was needed,
Giving power and peace within
Giving joy thru tears and trial,
Giving victory over sin.

So till then just keep on trusting,
Thru the sunshine and the rain,
Thru the tears and thru the heartaches,
Thru the smiles and thru the pain

Knowing that our Father watches,
Knowing daily strength He’ll give,
Victory for each passing hour,
This is life, so let us live!

By John E. Zoller

Season

This is the first time that I really don’t feel in the mood for the season. I mean it’s Christmas but I feel like crap.

I’m playing for the Christmas service this year again but somehow it just makes me feel worse. I suppose my faith is being shakened and I really have no idea what foundation I am standing on.

So many christmas parties or gatherings that somehow I now dread going to. One of which I am hosting.

If I could call it off I would. Maybe take a break and leave the country for a bit. Although I would have no where to go or even any clue of what to do if I get there.

Been driving much more lately and I really hate the radio. Sappy christmas songs which now just make me feel that I am all the more out of it – out of season.

Shout

Shout
Shout
Let it all out
These are things I can do without
Come On
I’m talking to you
Come on
In violent times
You shouldn’t have to sell your soul
In black and white
They really really ought to know
Those one track minds
That took you for a working boy
Kiss them goodbye
You shouldn’t have to jump for joy

Shout
They gave you life
And in return you gave them them hell
As cold as ice
I hope we live to tell the tale

Shout
And when you’ve taken down your guard
If I could change your mind
I’d really love to break your heart
Shout