Monthly Archives: December 2013
Break
I just want to sleep and not wake up for another month. Or even till after that.
I can not seem to catch a break.
Drive
Considering all that has happened at work. I was actually looking forward to a little christmas celebration amongst a small group of friends at work.
I cooked from 830 to 1100pm last night. I think because these friends are some of the nicest people around. I would hate to think what what happen if I don’t work with them.
Unfortunately, as I was driving to work, I inadvertently thought about what has been going on at work. All the politics, all the bias and unfair treatment, and started to feel down about it.
My moods are swinging quite a bit. Yesterday I was quite alright, having the day to myself and just running errands.
And of course just after I first write this down I get into another accident.
Private Posts
As a precaution, some of my really dark, innermost posts will be password protected. If you feel that it you really want to read them, just let me know and we’ll see if I think you can handle the messy workings of my thoughts and emotion.
Blindsided
Why is it some problems keep coming up time and time again? Why can’t issues be dropped? Why does one side always have to bring things up?
I am fed up of being blindsided. Just because there may be other people around, a person can seemingly be alright about a certain issue but then once you are both alone, just smack the issue back into your face.
True, I may come across as passive-aggressively shouldering the blame because I don’t want to talk about it anymore but I just want to move on and if it means accepting the burden of fault, so be it.
I can’t take this anymore. I feel like I am on the verge of giving up. Like I am pushing myself away.